RIP Daul Kim

First, there was Mr. Johnny Delgado, a premiere icon of Philippine Cinema. He fought against cancer. I just recently found out he's actually the husband of Laurice Guillen (actress/director).

Now, it's Kim Daul.

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I couldn't believe the tweet I got from OmonaTheyDidn't and AllKPop. Was this the Daul Kim of fashion? The one whose pictures I've been praising a few days ago?

Kim Daul is one of my favorites, primarily bec. she's Asian. I always get excited when I see Asian models walk the runway or pose for high fashion shoots. Her, Han Jin, Du Juan, Emma Pei, Tao Okamoto... I am so proud of them.

Why? I do hope it's not another cause of model suicide. But it was written in the articles that suicide was suspected. She was found dead in her Paris apartment.

I just found her blogspot tonight. I thought, if I could read a few of her thoughts, it would somehow give me a fragment to understand why she'd want to end her life. It's amusing how she always starts her titles with "say hi to..."

But there are some entries that don't begin with "say hi to". The title of this one entry is just a "."


-what i do is not a bad occupation
someone is always willing to pay.

+i would find it

tiring.

-oh no , its quite ________,
almost peaceful

no need to believe in either side

or any side

there is no courage.

theres only yourself.

the belief is your own precision

---- (I Like To Fork Myself)

Oh Daul... I hope you're at peace now.

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Kim Daul ( Korean, May 31, 1989 - Nov. 19, 2009)

Dolce & Gabbana Ready-to-Wear Spring 2009

Rodarte Ready-to-Wear Fall 2009

Erin Wasson Ready-to-Wear Spring 2010

Korea Allure, May 2008

Korea Vogue, October 2008

Vogue Nippon, September 2009

Credits:

OmonaTheyDidn't

Asian Models Blog

NYMag.com

Style.Com

Make Love

by Big Bang.

How weird that I have not heard this song today or yesterday but it kept playing in my head when I parked my car after driving home from work. And then again when I was in bed resting. I couldn't even figure out right away what the song was or who sang it... just an image.

After nap I realized. :)

Mei li and Taeyang sitting on a tree... HAHAHAHA. I love Daesung's voice here, it sticks out when it plays in my mind radio waves keke.

Quite confusing how to classify this. It's jpop sung by kpop artists with english lyrics. HAHAHA. Love love.

"forever be my girl"

Jojo In The Stars

My post Halloween treat. :)

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Dir. Marc Craste / UK / 2004

In a bleak and desolate world, a small creature seeks out the woman of his dreams: a high-flying circus performer with a cruel and possessive ringmaster.

Winner Best Animation at the 2004 Clermont-Ferrand International Film Festival.

Winner BAFTA for best animated short 2004

- futureshorts @ youtube

For more information, go to STUDIOaka (producer)

the halloween costume

I originally didn't want to spend much for my halloween costume (I'm still thinking of my trip for next year). I could have just used my pirate/gypsy costume from my senior photo. Eventually, after talking to Veronica, a co-worker who also listens to kpop, I suddenly got the idea of dressing up as a soldier inspired by SNSD's Genie. Veronica wanted to do it so I had to ask first if she was going to continue with the idea. But eventually she gave me the go so :) Yey, soldier girl.

I really wanted the white officer military costume of SNSD (Genie). Reminds me of my lolo too. But, it's impossible for me to find a costume which is exact to the original in just three weeks (even less). So I kept looking at their other videos and found this.

The costumes they used here were easier to find! So, I decided to be Yoona, the girl at the beginning with the grey military vest and blue garrison cap! Although I wanted Jessica's too with the oversized army shirt and red garrison cap.

Almost all pieces were from Forever21 - the grey denim zippered vest, the blue and white striped button down shirt (didn't want to wear sleeveless that night, it's cold in the store) and the pair of white shorts which I found at clearance! I have my own black tights (bec. if we're wearing short shorts, we have to cover our legs, it's store policy), and my black boots (bec. I won't survive working, walking from one side of the store to the next carrying clothes while wearing pumps haha).

The trickier part of the outfit was the garrison cap! I had to research and inquire about the caps and patches at ebay. I didn't want to buy the usual "captain's/officer's hat". Eventually, after a few nights of searching, I found the least expensive cap, the most appropriate patch (that would fit the cap) and a pin to accesorize. Also bought white ribbon from Michael's for the lining. Yes, I've decided to be girl from the air force.

The garrison cap project :p

2nd picture, top right, is a patch of the US Air Forces during ww2 and the third is a pilot wings pin. :)

Here's the final look.

I loved dancing to Genie while wearing my costume. HAHAHA. Sowaeneul Malhaebwa!

Toe Shoes

I was going through the older posts of people I follow in Tumblr when I came across this picture. Reminds me how I never reached the level of dancing with Toe Shoes and now, I'm still bitter. But the story behind it is more memorable.

I was already part of the leader line, the very first row of young ballerinas in a class. I did my very best to reach that line. Everytime Ms. Nanaz, the main instructor of the school and the owner, would teach our class, I would exaggerate my moves even more so that she would notice. I was successful. I'm one of the leaders.

One afternoon, there was a sudden evaluation for girls who can go on to the next level - toe shoes! I was super excited. But while Ms. Nanaz was observing us dancing, she was approaching a few girls who were considered best in the class. I figured, from eavesdropping, that one has to be 8 years old to dance Toe Shoes. When Ms. Effie came to me, I told her I was eight.

I lied.

I was just 7 at that time. I thought well it was only a few months more, maybe 3, til I became 8. So I was ushered to the waiting room bec. toe shoes people would be starting that afternoon together with the "seniors". Finally, I was joining the big girls, the ones who danced more gracefully and had more difficult classes.

But my mom saw what happened. She was surprised that she had to wait another hour for me to finish. So she asked the instructors what was going on.

I'm busted.

:( Oh well. Maybe they thought I was just a kid being naughty and playful, who couldn't wait to be 8. But it was embarassing.

But come to think of it... I was 7 and I was more aggresive when it comes to getting what I want. Where is that drive now? Lying to get what I want? That's not even a choice anymore. It's a no-no. Do I miss the ambitous little girl? Maybe. Maybe I need a little of the 7 year old Czarina. Minus the lying of course.

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(picture from cava)

the sunday lady

Every sunday morning, I see this old lady walk in Forever 21 (where I work) and would do maybe 2-3 walks around the store before going into the mall. Maybe even more laps or go-arounds. One morning, as part of my "job descripton" and bec. of the new manager, I walked up to her and asked her if she needed any help. I was quite alarmed when she stopped just a few inches from me. Personal space alert! But I had to remain calm and kept smiling.

She started to talk about her morning behavior of walking for exercise. I forgot if she starts at 10 or 11. And then she would walk about 2 hours around the mall. When she asked me to guess her age, I politely answered 68. Well, I was 10 years short. 78 and still strong, it was very impressive. So she told me that's what she do to keep strong most especially that she lived alone and had been widowed since the 70s. And then she continued how she would look at the items she wanted and would even tell other customers how Sears offered the same product but our price is lower (free advertising and sales talk hehe).

During this time, she would still lean forward making my personal space inexistent and would even touch me at the arm.

In the end, instead of the annoyance at the old lady, I was actually inspired. She has been living alone since the 70s. A lot of people wouldn't want to reach that age. Some would want to die at their 60s for they don't want to experience being sickly, alone and being dependent. But here was the sunday lady, 78, still going strong, trying her best to live. :)

Son Dam Bi - Saturday Night

Is the new dance I'm learning. I'm done with intro and first chorus. This video however cuts the chorus after the intro and starts at first verse right away.

On tuesday, first verse. :)

This song is very 80s. I don't necessarily love the song. I just find the shoulder dance for chorus very cute hehe.