mass and communion

It's another Sunday of not participating in Communion (I missed two church services).

Usually, I would concentrate on just praying while others are lining up to receive the Host. When I was done praying today, I stood up and observed the people who were receiving the Bread. I focused on the server directly in front of me (was sitting at the 2nd row). I was instantly attracted to her metallic ruffled blouse which has the same material to a dress I recently merchandised near our store entrance. I don't love the blouse. It was just so familiar looking. But then I thought if I'm old, is it my fate to wear clothes like the ruffled purple metallic blouse? Hmmm...

And then I began to look at the people who she was serving to. There's this huge and bald guy who didn't offer his hands and instead received a blessing (something you give to the kids who haven't had their First Communion yet). There's this old lady who was rushing that she couldn't even wait for the server to put The Host properly in her palm and that she took it straight from the server's hand. There's this teenager who obviously was bored and looked like she just wanted this to be over (I got pissed at this). There's this couple who looked like they just fought and had sour faces.

If you're going to receive Jesus, at least, give the proper respect. Shouldn't you be thankful for this gift? What's with the bored and the sour facea and the rushing. At least the big guy, although in his heart he knows he couldn't receive The Host, he still lined up to receive a blessing. If you don't receive wholeheartedly, then don't bother anyway. You won't receive your miracles just by eating bread. For others, it's just mere obligation and it's very heartbreaking.